down?

lately there's many things going on with my life. from raya visiting, sports carnival, and some other stuff. i just don't really feel like updating my blog as i don't feel like posting any. although most of the things happened were good memories, but i just don't feel like i used to. the feeling, it just wasn't there. i just don't feel happy as i used to be. i just feel like disappearing and never be missed by anyone. maybe it's better for everyone. maybe it's best for me. who knows. all these things that i do just doesn't make me feel happy anymore. there's something missing. and i don't know what or why i feel this way. all i feel is emptiness, and even though all these laughter on the outside, it echoes of emptiness inside...

all words of motivations just make me feel down and disappointed at myself...