down. down. down.

i don't know why i am always feeling down lately. it's hard for me to think positive. come to think of it, i never really think positive much. i feel nothing good will be there lying down on my path. fake smiles and suicidal thoughts are all i can give right now. always thinking of taking the easy way out but then what will happen? all that are left behind while i was taking the easy way? all the consequences... how i wish life can be much more simple... but then again, i want to live like there's no tomorrow.

living life on the fast lane, makes me think that my ride will be the end... -speul-