it's raining heavily now...

i never thought that i would miss the rain again after the rainy season few weeks back. i felt happy somehow. but i actually felt miserable and i don't know what's causing me to feel this way. deep inside me i felt totally miserable and lonely... i feel like i need someone to talk to, to listen to what i'm going through. not to be the one who judge me but the one to guide me. i'm still searching for that 'one'. no, not searching, i guess i'm just waiting...

downloaded a new band to listen to. bring me the horizon. search for the video in youtube, pray for plagues, i like the video although you can't really listen to the song itself. it has been a long time since i listen to this type of music and i'm glad that i was recommended this by a friend. reminds me who i was and who i really need to be. myself. i am someone who doesn't really care about what people says and what people do, but, i can if you want me to.

i still have the problem of sleeping late at night, or should i say, early hours in the morning. and this is causing me headaches as i wanted to sleep (which is actually the time when i should wake up). i wonder if sleeping pills can help. any thoughts on that? oh, well.. who cares...