Confused...

I am really confused on what I am supposed to do now. I haven't felt the same since that day happened to me. It never had occurred to me before and I never expected it to be this way. And now I feel more confuse as ever now that I don't know what I am going to be like in the future. Maybe I can still keep it to myself but I do not know for how long. The pressure is building inside me but I need to keep it low. Maybe I just can't deal with this kind of thing.
Maybe I should just be all alone in this world...